Growing up is super weird. I'm starting my last year of high school at the end of August, and it feels weird.
I really don't know how to explain my feelings toward this event other than "weird." I'm unsure if I'm happy about almost being done with high school, or sad about almost being done with high school. I'm just …"weird" about it.
It seems like I should be jumping up and down and rejoicing about being a senior, being a top dog, or a big fish in a little pond or anything else people love to pin on to the essence of being a senior. I just feel weird.
Some people are really sad about almost being done. I just feel weird. I like the feeling, though, because I have a year to figure out what I'm feeling toward this new ending.
I guess right now you could say I'm in the lazy river of life because I'm casually floating on, observing my surroundings and seeing what other people are doing.
Some people are the kids who like to push their way through, wanting to get through the lazy river faster than the current allows them. They treat the "lazy river" like it's an expressway. They want to find a way out to move on to something bigger and better — perhaps more dangerous even.
Some people are like me, floating and enjoying the sun on my face and the bright blue sky above me. We're content with how the water flows and let it take us over.
Other people are trying to decide if they want to get out or to continue to float. We’re all at different points in the lazy river of life.
Sometimes, at different points in the river, the current picks up, pushing us in a different direction. Sometimes a bucket of water is dumped over your head, scaring you and leaving you shocked by its frigidness. Sometimes you bump up against the rough wall and the wall scrapes you. Sometimes you knock into other people. But you shrug it off and keep floating.
For right now, I'm floating in the lazy river of life, but in a few months I'll have to get out of my tube and walk out.
Everyone is on their own lazy river, being shocked, or getting scraped or floating. At some point, we'll all have to get out to find a new adventure, but if you're not sure of that adventure yet, just keep floating.