T.J. Laurisch doesn't try to think about what if.
Or about being on lockdown in his dormitory at Harvard where he is a freshman.
He does know he appreciates the freedom of being able to do what he wants after having it taken away from him for a day.
Harvard and several colleges and towns in the Boston area were on lockdown last week to the manhunt of Dzhokhar Tsarnaev, one of the suspects in the bomb attack at the Boston Marathon.
"It did bother a lot of people," Laurisch said of being confined to the dorm. "It was like being quarantined. Me, I just went about my business, studied. We did get to go out for meals."
Laurisch, a Dyer resident and Mount Carmel graduate, is a member of the baseball team. The team did not practice on that day, so Laurisch studied and thought about what happened not too far from campus.
The previous Monday he had planned on going to the Boston Marathon after his English class ended at 2 p.m. Laurisch planned on taking the train to the Boylston Street Station, right where the bomb went off, so he could watch the ending of the famous race. There was no baseball practice on that day, so why not?
"I would have gotten to the finish line about 2:40, 2:45 (p.m.)," Laurisch said. "I decided not to go and I didn't know what happened. My sister Alexia texted me and told me what happened. I started following on my computer.
"I thought about it later and it sunk in that I might have been there."
The situation on Harvard's campus and the nearby colleges was the same, Laurisch said.
"People were scared because he (Tsarnaev) had Harvard ties and it was close by," Laurisch said. "We really didn't know what to expect. We didn't like being locked down, but it was for our own good.
"It is still like you can't believe what happened, but it did. It was just a terrible thing."
Three people were killed by the April 15 explosion of the shrapnel-packed pressure-cooker bombs. A fourth, Massachusetts Institute of Technology police officer Sean Collier, was later shot to death by the Tsarnaev brothers.
Like everyone else, Laurisch, his classmates and teammates and the rest of us will move on, but we will never forget that day.
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